A New Road

{love this tree lined road at Ensign Ranch. I needed more photos there but forgot, dang it.}

We are finally headed down a new road, Milo starts working tomorrow morning at 8am! Surprisingly, it was a hard decision to make. Among other things, it's not in his field of study (it's HR management stuff) and we kept going back and forth deciding if he should just take it because a job's a job and deal with finding an accounting job later or hold out for 'the one' job that might take who knows how many more months (not the best option). Things will still be tight but the positives out weigh the negatives and that's all that matters right now because we're done with negatives around here.

One big positive, Milo will be working here in town, he's worked out of town our whole marriage and I don't think this one will take getting used to. He works 5 minutes from home. He's going to be able to coach Dane's soccer team and attend most, if not all of Nathan and Kathryn's games. Oh another big plus, he'll be around to help run around to all the practices with 3 kids on 3 different teams, yeah! So it's onto finding positives that seemed so far away just a week ago.

We've made it through 6 months of unemployment and I'm proud of us because at times, it felt like making it was the hardest thing there was to do. I know that's how our trials shape us but staying patient and positive was getting harder and harder (dang adversary). I've been bitter about our last job and the many issues associated with it, I've been angry, I've cried, worried, stressed and thought about our future and where I assumed we would be. Woulda, coulda, shoulda is not a good road to go down. I've gained 10 pounds (there I said it in case you're seen me and have wondered. Admitting is the first step to change, right?) and think about losing it all. the. time. Why do I ever think I'm in charge when I know, know, I'm not?

I have had a full heart today. We have been blessed again and again in the last 6 months and I hope each person was blessed for their service. I am so grateful for each giver of time, money, food, hugs, smiles, encouragement, understanding, friendship and love that has reached out to each one of us. We have much to pay forward!

(Know of any project management jobs? Send them my way because now we need a new road for Kyle.)